Not Who But Whose
I have spent a good portion of my adult life, regretting my adult life.
Too much really.
To many hours spent rummaging through the boxes of “what ifs.”
The seemingly endless memories of people telling me I cannot do something,
should not bother trying, not cut out for this or that…
It is exhausting
The mental supply of self-loathing is overflowing.
And yet, I add to it almost every day.
Every time I slip up, screw up or mess up.
I replay my own version again and again.
Like a cover tune that never lives up to the original…my own song pales in
comparison but I crank the volume and hit repeat…
Why do I want to keep hearing this crap?
Why does anyone? Because I know I am not alone.
You do it.
You too.
Oh, yeah, and you.
We all do.
I think even the most successful people do it, they have just learned to
tune out the noise.
THAT is where I am trying to get.
I believe in some narcissistic and perverse way, we let that record play because,
we like it.
Well, maybe “like” is the wrong word.
It’s comfortable?
Hmm, not sure I like that either but it’s closer.
Part of it is because we learned the
song from someone we loved, who loved us. Or thought they did.
Hmm, no, I believe they did/do love us.
I believe in 99.9% of all cases where we learned our negativity tunes, they
were taught by people that absolutely loved, they just didn’t know the damage
they were causing.
They were not aware enough of what their words were doing or the impact they
would have.
After all, they were doing the best they could.
They were doing what they learned from their composers.
The sad thing is they did not realize how damaging the song was they were
singing.
The scary result is that we do not, in many cases, recognize it and set the
same playback for our kids instead of writing our own song.
I mentioned our “lie-dentities” last week. A phrase coined by one of my unaware
mentors.
It’s past time we understand that our identities are not what we have been taught,
though shaped by harsh or careless words by loved ones.
We are defined by WHOSE we are.
We are defined by the Creator of the universe, and not what some chucklehead
thinks and definitely not by what they say.
Take some time this week and find some scriptures that TELL you who God says
you are and not only commit them to memory, do so by reading them – out loud!
You need to hear the words of God not just read them.
After all, faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the word of God.
Then, you MUST start to believe them
If you cannot find any, leave me a comment below and I will post them.
Mick Holt 