I cannot say that I have had a good week. In fact, it would be a massive understatement to stay it was crap; that I am glad for the week to be over does not do justice to the word.
But God was with me.
I have had a migraine since sometime on Monday. That sucker hit its apex on Tuesday – and boy did it hit. I barely remember driving home from work – not a good thing. On top of that I have been beating myself up over the past, the present and what I am afraid is going to be the future.
But God was with me.
I have thought a lot this week about the life of David. Anointed to be king – at a young age but forced to run for his life and hide before he ever ascended to the throne. I do not fancy myself king – would not want the job. Still, I feel like I run and hide a lot too – I wonder if I knew if someone was trying to kill me if that would effect me like the migraine did?
But God was with me.
David also made many mistakes as king but never fell out of favor with God – now that is something I can relate to.
“Oh he excels at that, sir” Said C-3P0. He could have been talking about me and the truth is he could have been talking about YOU.
But you know what…
God IS with us.
Not was or will be but IS.
God IS with us – right now. Right where you are, right where I am. He’s going where you’re going, the car, the bus the train – you don’t even have to text him God will meet you where you are. He already knows.
God IS with us.
Sometimes it takes a really bad week to remember that. Sometimes all it takes is one bad afternoon – but I am not as bright as some so it took me a bit longer.
So, no matter how bad your week has been, no matter how crummy you feel, no matter how confused, depressed, discouraged, tired, frustrated, overwhelmed or _______________________________________ you are or have been remember God IS with you. Try saying this the rest of the day any time any of these boogeymen pop in your head.
God IS with me. God is with ME. GOD is with me.
GOD IS WITH ME.
Nope we are not alone, and yes my week started good……. But than I was pushed into the gates of Hell ( so it seemed) I try to take comfort in the fact that God is with us, but how do we really know, how can we be satisfied That God is really here. HOW?? Sometimes it seems like he leaves us on a strangers door step wrapped in a blanket, crying and hungry, hoping to be held and loved. This is how my week has been. I have been abandoned, left in a situation I do not know how to work through, I am lost, confused, misunderstood! Why have I been left on a doorstep.
I completely understand, I really do. My post on Wednesday sounded similar to what you said – if you want you can read that here.
You asked two questions and I am going to answer them in reverse order because the second answer – first question – really holds both together.
You asked, “Why have I been left on a doorstep?” Very good question – I know it’s good because King David asked it and so did Jesus while he was on the cross. The answer is you have not been “left” on the door step – but God may need you to trust that He’s still there. Perhaps just standing behind you. Psalm 16:8 says, “I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.” This is just one of the verses that attest to God’s faithfulness towards us.
You asked, “…how do we really know, how can we be satisfied That God is really here. HOW??” The truth is you can’t at first. You cannot know until you KNOW. Sounds muddled, right? I agree. Here’s the thing, our relationship with God is based on our FAITH in the redemptive work – life, death and resurrection – of Jesus Christ. When we first believe we struggle – I still do. The longer we work at aligning our lives with the will of God the more He allows us to trust Him. As our trust grows our faith grows. The more our faith grows the more “we know,” really know that God is there. We cannot always explain it but we know.
I can tell you that through the years of my walk with Christ, many of those years have been spent with me running as hard as I can away from Him but every turn that would have been too far, every decision that could have potentially set off circumstances I did not want, every STUPID idea I had, there was always a voice, or a sense, a feeling – whatever you want to call it that kept me from going too far. While I was unemployed for nearly 5 months and my wife was battling breast cancer – the first time – we never missed a house payment or major bill and we ALWAYS had food – sometime too much. THAT’S how I know. If you read the post I mention above, you’ll see I struggle with emotion just like you, like everyone does but – there is not a time, ever, that I doubt God, His presence, His love for me and my family and His love for YOU.
The stuff I struggle with always comes back to “why” something does or does not happen. “Why” has God allowed this, allowed that or not made something happen. So, I would ask that you look, first and foremost, at your relationship with Jesus Christ. Read John’s Gospel, I believe it is the best example of the love of Christ and his sacrifice for you. Completely turn your life over to His authority, read your bible, pray and find other people to help you grow, of course keep coming to PADAG for my pearls of wisdom 🙂 I think the kind of faith that allows you to “know” the “without a doubt” faith comes with practice – really like anything else. The more you use your faith the stronger it becomes.
Hope that helps.
Oh boy, yes. A really difficult and crummy week. Family stuff.
But, through it all, God has been WITH me! I don’t know what I would do without Him.
You get headaches, too? I tell you, I wouldn’t wish that pain on my worst enemy. Well, maybe…
GOD BLESS, Mick.
Sharon, crummy weeks of family – I understand. That’s the thing God IS always with us – even when we choose not to see or acknowledge him.
I do get headaches and they just started the last four or five years – devastating!
Thanks for stopping by – have a great holiday.
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