Refuse God? Not Any More

Posted: March 17, 2013 in Uncategorized

I cannot play guitar. 
Photo By: Thomas Brownell (Creative Commons)
It is not the gift or ability God chose to give me. Despite my best efforts to convince Him that I would be really – really good and use my gifts to glorify Him – I mean what else would I do?
It is also not for lack of want and certainly not ownership. In fact, since I was 14 years old, I have owned at least one guitar – sometimes more than one.  Yet, I can still only play a couple chords; but no songs.
Even when I learn to play songs, I cannot sing along. My mouth, hands and head refuse to cooperate with each other. 
It’s quite maddening.
I have been to just about every website I can find to learn tricks or pick up a pointer, anything, that will help me become a guitar player. 
Notice I did not say “better”? I just want to be able to say, “Yeah, I play guitar.” 
I cannot play guitar. 
However, I can write and speak to groups of people. Those are my gifts. But I did not even try to use them for a long, long time. God opened doors, gave me opportunities, glimpses but I either frittered them away or turned my back completely. Sometimes, I ran as fast as I could – in the opposite direction. 
This is not the way to honor God or to get him to change his mind about what he wants us to do. Want to know a little secret – He’s not going to anyway. In all honesty, this is the way a spoiled child behaves when he does not get what he wants. 
Being disobedient to god does not have to look like a particular sin. It is not necessarily lusting after someone other than your wife, being jealous, worshiping idols and even murdering someone. Being disobedient can simply be NOT doing what God’s placed in your heart to do. 
James said “So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin” (4:17 ESV).
I knew what God had/has put in my heart. I knew, but it was only part of what I wanted to do. I liked writing. Sure I was good at it but people knew rock stars. People listened to rock stars. And, to be completely honest, girls LIKED rock stars. Girls don’t like writers – at least that’s what I thought. 
And until a few years ago – again, ignoring God’s repeated attempts to get me to try it – I refused to do stand-up. I always thought I was funny but not the way a comic needs to be. God was right, I was wrong – go figure!
Do you know what happened to the Israelites when they refused to accept God’s perfect will for them and trust Him to provide? They wandered the desert for forty years until the entire generation died.  
I do not want to wander the streets of Tampa for forty years until I die when a life of abundance is just across the river – so to speak. I do not want to refuse to act on what God has made clear to me needs to be done – by me. I do not want to miss the opportunities or blessings God has in store for me because I refused God. Because I refused to believe Him when he says “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts ” (Isaiah 55:9).
Has God told you to something and you refused, or put it off? Leave a comment below – I promise I will respond.
  1. I think it takes tremendous insight to take a deep look at ourselves and then to apply that to serving God out in the world. I've been going through the same journey lately!

  2. Mickholt says:

    I agree. It takes, I think, more courage to implement than to look. But you MUST be willing to do the looking. Thanks for the comment.

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  4. Mickholt says:

    Thank you for the compliment and for the comment. Hope you make it back. Please let me know if you stop by again. God Bless.

  5. Jeremy Myers says:

    Awesome post. And so true. I cannot sing and clap at the same time! But like you, I can write. Keep writing, I am enjoying your posts, and you are a good writer.

  6. mickholt says:

    Thank you so much Jeremy I really appreciate the comment and the compliment.

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